Labels: the end

They won't understand, don't they? They only think about themselves, not about how I feel. Don't you know it hurts me when you said I didn't care about the family anymore? Don't you know it hurts me more when you said I don't even know how to spend time with the family? It's not as if I don't want to, but I've been too busy with school. And schoolwork is not easy especially during these critical period leading up to A's. I'm not left with so much time. I just want you to understand, and cooperate with me. I'm at the brink of breaking down with all these things happening right now.


And by the way, you were too busy when I needed you the most and you never knew the times I felt really, really lonely. So save it :(

Labels: to those who tried to bring me down i'll keep my faith up.

I really don't like what I'm going through right now. I need to really pull myself out from this crap I'm in, start putting in more effort into what I'm doing because I don't feel like I'm going to make it till the end of the years with the state I am in right now. I know I haven't been an effective and productive student this year, and I'm really sorry about that. I can't seem to put my mind at ease with the personal problems I am facing. I'm trying very hard to put the past behind and start the day anew but somehow I feel as if I've not accomplished anything at the end of the day. I can only talk so much about improving myself, but I know there needs to be an effort from me. I want to help myself, I do. I need God's guidance, I need a little more faith in me. Come on Syahrul, what's wrong with you?



Sometimes I want to run away to the moon, for I wish to be isolated from the rest of the world.

Labels: hope. believe. faith.

WFA, WHERE ART THOU? I NEED TO TALK TO YOUUUUUUUUU.
AND I MISS YOUUUUUUU. LIKE A LOTTTTTTTTT.

(P.S: I'm sure Lizah will start laughing now)
(P.P.S: WFA, if your MSN can't work, go to ebuddy.com. It's an online version of MSN Messenger, just in case)
(P.P.P.S: I wish I was born a normal human being, with simple needs and pleasures)

Maybe I want love so much so that I can't see the signs, like what Nizam said.
Maybe I trust you too much to even give a damn about myself.

Take the advices of others for they worry about you.
And maybe I should.
And I hope I won't regret this later.

Labels: love stoned

I am afraid. Because as of now, I might be getting the H1N1 symptoms. I'm having a throbbing headache that makes me want to vomit everytime, I've been having the flu since school started and I only need the sorethroat to confirm this. Please don't let me have H1N1, because as much as I don't want to go to school, it's not like I have a choice in life. Plus, I don't want to die like this :(


I miss WFA. Somehow he knows how to make things better when your world's drodgy. Shit, I need to vomit.