If only there's a pause button in life..
Stop telling me to stay or go.
Stop telling me you're gonna be sad.
Stop telling me I'm gonna be missed.
Stop telling me to change.
I don't get you, really.
Couldn't you be happy for me?
For once, I've done others proud of my results.
Now that I want to pride myself in NYJC, you're telling me not to go?
Shouldn't you be happy for my future?
I just don't you, really.
I know, I've been in your shoes.
My bestfriend, my bro from YJC is leaving me too.
But I'll have to learn to accept it.
It's just parts and parcels of life, so won't you give me a break?
Stop cursing me that I won't make it to NY.
I'm appealing through Art because that's the only thing I'm good at.
I don't have a supergenius brain, all I have now is my talent and first impression.
Why do you always think I'm a goody-two-shoes when I'm not?
I study, mug because I want to prove to you that I'm not just a brawn.
I have brains too, I'll prove it to you.
I'm sad too that I'm leaving you behind.
Have you considered feeling that?
Have you opened your eyes big enough to see that I'm crying inside?
Thank God for Nizam, he helped me through this.
When I felt really tired from lessons and I feel like breaking down, were you there?
Were you there when I tried to cut myself?
Were you there when I was lost making my school choices?
Call yourself friends, when you're acting like you aren't.
I'm sorry to doubt you like this.
But heck, it pains me to see you doing this to me.
All I have now is myself and my blog.
Go think of something to do before you tell me this again.
I'm sad, can't you tell?
I'm sorry about yesterday but I think it's best for both of us to concentrate on our own stuff.
I've broke too many hearts and I've seen too many people cried.
I won't let you fade away like that, I won't let you suffer through this alone.
I'm here for you, like I always wanted to.
Good luck for your A's. Till we meet again (:
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