But fuck you, it's my blog and it's my only form of letting out my emotions.
You know that Virgos suppressed their feelings and I'm trying to ignore that fact.
You know, everytime I look back at your old messages, the photos we took and the card you wrote, I cry.
Really, I cry like no one's watching.
I just wish this could stop.
It's really been a rollercoaster ride for me now.
And I'm feeling kinda sick of it.
So sick, I get angry at myself.
I want to cry a river so that I don't have to cry now and then.
It's so difficult for me to deny the fact that I still love you like how I used to.
And it's much more difficult now that you're starting to drift apart from me.
We're never going to be friends like what we're used to be.
So what am I thinking and hoping so much from you?
Because I still do have feelings for you?
GOD, I just wanna talk to you even if it was for the last time.
I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you.
Bull poo, Syahrul, you got to stop already!
See, now I feel like crying again.
And Bleeding Love playing in the background isn't helping to ease the pain.
Gah!
Thanks for the concern, you guys.
I appreciate it but I've got to search for an answer to this.
Don't worry, I'm not gonna commit suicide that soon.
I have a long life to live, I hope :(
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