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Syahrul Naem Bin Jailani
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Aspiring Architect/Fashion Designer
I just want to make my parents proud, that's all.
31 May 2008 | 10:36:00 PM
Confessions

Note to self: This is going to be a rather emotional post regarding a personal view.

Mistake (noun): Error; Fail to understand.
I'm a mistake in peoples' lives.
It feels as though I've messed up my life more than I should.
And I'm messing other lives and hurting them in the process.
All these have to stop as I can't take it anymore.

I don't mean to hurt you.
I don't mean to appear as a scar in your life.
If I ever did, then I'm a mistake to you.
You should erase me from your life.
I don't mind.
Because hurting people is not exactly a fun thing to do.
Especially if you are oblivious to it.

I'm very sorry and I hope you forgive me.
Even if you don't, I take it as a lesson learnt.
I'm just a stupid mistake.



Sometimes I feel like running faraway till no one can hear me cry out loud.
The tears will resemble all those 16 years of wasted life.
My life's pretty much messed up.
I wish I could start anew.
But then, it's just a wish.
Now, it's reality.

So, please don't keep asking me about R.
I won't tell, it's my dirty little secret.
Maybe you'll soon find out, I guess.


And when you told me not to bring myself down,
I cried because you knew it well that I was hurt.

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