It's been days of hell for me.
I won't forgive myself for what happened.
Now, I can sense our awkwardness.
And I don't like it one bit.

I wish I had deal with this problem better.
I wish I had time to think through it again.
But that chance will never come again, that I know.
And I don't want it to be the end of us.

I'm falling sick again.
And Block Tests are just next week.
My mental capacity is crowded with thoughts of this and that.
I know I should be concentrating on my studies.
That'll be what R wants me to do.

I can't live up to expectations anymore.
I can't live the way people want me to.
I know I've never been one of your proud pocessions.
And maybe, I'll never be.

But I thank you, for always telling me what to do.
Because most of my decisions I made myself are bad.
I know we learn from experiences.
We're only human, ain't we?

Labels: to those who tried to bring me down i'll keep my faith up.