Not necessarily in a positive way though.
I, Syahrul Naem, will make a huge sacrifice and back out of the Vietnam OCIP.
After how I saw my dad reacted to the amount of money, I know I had to make some changes.
And this is by far, the biggest sacrifice in my life.
All I wanted was to help others in need.
To thank Allah for giving me a blessed life with loved ones around me.
However, I cannot help them if I cannot help myself.
I know this may be very last minute because I just joined the group.
But if you're in my shoes, you'll know how I feel.
To see my parents work so hard for the family to live comfortably, it's only fair if they spent the money on the whole family than on me alone.
At least, all our needs were provided by their hard work.
I don't want to be an ungrateful child.
And I know, in life things don't usually turn out the way it is supposed to be.
Our plans get mixed up and we have to learn to accommodate to this change.
Therefore, backing out of the Vietnam trip seems to be the best solution I have now.
At the very least, my parents will be relieved of the financial burden.
It's hard for me as well.
I've told all my friends, how proud I was to go Vietnam.
To help children in need.
And now, I'm not even going to step out of Singapore's shores.
I cried so hard the night I made this decision.
I blamed myself for doing things without thinking of the consequences.
But I promised myself, I'll work hard during the holidays and do some good deeds to repay everything.
I'll work hard, I'll work smart (true to the words of R).
But Syahrul Naem will never give up.
These life obstacles will only make me stronger as a person.
And make me closer to Allah because I know He has better plans for me.
I'll tell him tomorrow.
I'm sorry I let you guys down.
Labels: hope. believe. faith.