Last Saturday, I had a scholarship preparatory workshop with the ESP students. It's our last meeting for the year :( Awww.. All the best for the Prelims, ESP-ians. We can definitely do this :)
Anyway, I came to realise that maybe I've not been working so hard to achieve what I want. I mean, I really want the best for myself and my parents so that they won't have to work doubly hard to pay for my Uni fees. They always say, "Aim for the highest" and highest in the scholarship sense is the PSC scholarship. I'm not really sure whether I want to apply for it because I feel that I'm not up to that standard. Even though, I've met the criterias to apply, maybe what they need are the results and I don't produce them results. Sigh...

However, I've been putting my sights to an SIA scholarship though. I really really want it because I want to fulfill my dream of going around the world. Now, I've been thinking how I would put my life at risk if I were to become an air steward. Should there be any diseases, airplanes are the most vulnerable places to be in. Should there be any complications, the airplane will definitely not survive the crash. Should there be a terrorist attack, the air stewards and pilots are in danger and hold great reponsibilities for the lives of their passengers.

The reason why I'm saying all these is not to scare myself. It made me realised how much risks I'm putting myself into, to be away from my loved ones most of the time. But if one were to make a decision, would he sacrifice his dream to be with his loved ones? That, I am not sure myself. But I hope, if anything happens to me, you'll remember me always. Keep me in your prayers and be closer to God for He holds your destiny in His hands.

I'm speaking to you with confidence, not with arrogance.