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Syahrul Naem Bin Jailani
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Aspiring Architect/Fashion Designer
I just want to make my parents proud, that's all.
26 November 2009 | 11:48:00 PM
Maybe Just Maybe

Alhamdulillah, my exams are finally over yesterday. And I hope all those months that I've put myself into a constant state of being in a rollercoaster, of all the breakdowns, of all the personal achievements, of all the letdowns, everything will pay off as it should be. For now, my aim is not to get straight As because honestly, I don't think I worked so hard to achieve such results. But I put my faith in God, that what I did will be a personal best for me. And that's all I'm asking for.

Right now, it's all about taking a nice break before I'm enlisted into the Army, which will be soon. I don't know what to expect but I'm taking it as it is. Even my parents are all into the "my-baby-boy-is-going-national-service-soon" frenzy which, believe me, irritates the hell out of me. But Army here I come, for better or worst, I have to go through two years with you anyhow.

At this exact moment, there are two things, or specifically, two people that I wish to be with me now - WFA and R <3 I don't know where they are exactly, but I hope you're reading this. I really really miss you.

To WFA: Ever since your papers were over, you're not online anymore and I don't know why. I'm not going to get myself depressed over it but I'm wishing you appear somehow, miraculously now. You know I can't live my life without you, right?

To R: I know this relationship hadn't been a joyous ride for both of us. But let's talk things through. The truth is, I miss you and I hadn't been able to cope with those feelings for the past 9 months that you were away. Can you please call or text me as soon as you read this (which I really hope you are)? Remember what you told me the last time: My life's empty without you, syg? Can you imagine the emptiness I'm feeling right now? I just want things to be better between the both of us, and I pray to God every single night for your presence in my life again.


Life may look unappealing at times, but it's not really that bad as you think it is. It's a test of your strength, your inner spirit. Pray, because that's the only hope you can find in Life.