What was I thinking in the first place? Two years ago when I met you, I really thought this was going to be the beginning of a new fairytale story with another happy ending. But little do I know, it will turn out like this.

Sometimes I wonder, for the past few months, whether you loved me the same way you did two years ago. I never knew what was running through your mind, but I kept holding on even against my own bestfriend's wishes. I knew you were special so I couldn't let you go. I remembered the first time we broke up, we both went through hell. So we patched things up, but look at us again, this was never what we wanted.

The thing I missed about you was talking to you on the phone at night, before we sleep. Even though it was just a phonecall a few times a week, at least I know you were close to me and that you were there for me. But lately, I've been spending lonely nights because you are too busy, even for me. I do not want to get irrational about it, but it has been 9 months since you called. Don't you think that was a bit too long?

Someone said my Love is my greatest strength, I'm losing it bit by bit. I never knew I could fall so hard for someone. I gave you my heart, but I wonder where you've put it now. Maybe it's at the back of your closet, long forgotten.

I pray to God to give me guidance through this. I pray to Him that if you were not meant for me, then He'll show me some signs. Is your absence a sign? I'm living in denial. I know I couldn't love anyone the way I loved you the past two years. Because you're my God-sent miracle, and you gave me happiness I never knew. Right now, things are beginning to change. You're no longer the person I knew two years ago.

I pray for another miracle right now that you'll contact me as soon as possible. I just want to tell you everything I feel towards you. But I wonder if I'll ever get the chance to do so.


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I miss WFA so much, it even hurts to think about it right now :'(