Meet ups with bestfriend always got me thinking about myself. Of all the people I know, I guess he's the one who knows what I'm going through and even though his words may sometimes cut me deep but it's painfully comforting at the same time. Bestfriend always remind me of my self-worth and he thinks that to be who I am, I don't deserve most of the things that I'm facing right now. He's right and it's me that needs to make a choice... difficult choices.

You know, I'm so jealous of bestfriend. Our lives are so different as compared to just two years ago? In the past, when R was around, I would brag to bestfriend about how great R was and that would make him realllllllly envious because he was single then. But it's all opposite now... He's the one with an awesome partner and never failed to share with me sweet stories about their relationship. Albeit, it didn't failed to make me recall some of my own memories with R but bestfriend's in a better position than me, for sure.

Some might say it's karma - what goes around, comes around. Here's to me bragging so much in the past. Hehe I guess it's becoming a norm to regret so many things you do in the past. It's definitely difficult to accept Fate as it is at this stage in Life. Sometimes you wish you had super powers so that things will go your way but who am I kidding, this is real. Growing up isn't an easy business but then again, who said it was? You just take it in your stride and move.

Oh well, I hope bestfriend cherishes his relationship because being in love is the greatest feeling everyone should deserve to feel. I love you, bestfriend.