I made a promise to Allah, I won't disturb you unnecessarily. That's my only reason I've not been messaging or calling you. That's why I've been avoiding you lately. I've been through a lot of downs recently, and as much as I want to cry on your shoulders, I won't. These are Allah's ways to let me know that I'm stronger than this. Syg, I have you in my mind and my heart every second I breathe. I'm afraid to close my eyes and sleep every night. I'm afraid I won't wake up to see my family, friends and especially you. I'm afraid because I know how it feels like to see someone you love slipping from your hands like air. I just want to let you know that you're not lost from my life. Till the day my life is through and every word I say is true, I promise you.


(P.S. I love you)

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