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Syahrul Naem Bin Jailani
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Aspiring Architect/Fashion Designer
I just want to make my parents proud, that's all.
21 January 2009 | 5:53:00 PM

It's only the second week of school, and I'm feeling the pressure of A's breathing down my neck (the idea of something breathing down your neck sounds orgasmic -.-) Anyway, let me emphasise the SECOND WEEK of school yet again, and tell you that, to my suprise as well, I've broke down.

I know some of you might say that I should take things one step at a time and not get to caught up with everything that comes my way, but the truth is, I am taking one step at a time and it doesn't work for me. At this current rate, I have to really catch up with my studies because I feel that I've been neglecting them since the holidays. CNY holidays will be a good time to do the catching up of work.

Art has taken its toll on me. This is the first time, in the history of Syahrul Naem, that Syahrul would officially say that he abhors Art lessons. The intensity and competition among the seven of us in the room is so humid that I find myself struggling, coping to meet everyone's expectations. But yet again, I don't make that cut. And it's demoralizing because I was top for Art in the recent Promo exams. Yet, who am I kidding? That was only PROMOS, not the major A's.

I feel lost. I don't feel like I'm in the right place at the right time. I'm still trying to figure things out like my University admissions, my future careers etc. I know Allah will guide me through this. But for now, not only do I need Him, I need you as well :(

Oh well, I guess you can't have the best of everything. Life's not meant to be perfect. And it certainly ain't made to go our way. Life obstacles make you a better and stronger person. So, I musn't lose faith. If this is what Allah wants me to do/see/hear/smell etc., then this is what I have to accept. Most importantly, learn to accept.

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